What follows was meant to be published last month.  I was at a place of confusion and just going with the motion.
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Ok! This is the 2nd month in the year and what have I achieved...
I feel like I am trying to start something but nothing is happening...yet too much is happening.
I am still trying to clear backlog....
I'm still trying to complete projects I committed myself to in the past year...
I am still feeling like I am not quite handling things very well on the home front and I refuse to let that continue.

So where do I draw the line?

This is one of those moments in my life when I do feel like a month away from it all would help me to clear my head and see things clearly.  But I realise that I would be coming back to a mountain of unfinished projects.  So I feel its better to keep pushing ahead.

Now is when I need to embrace the word of God and rest in His peace.

*******I didn't post this last month because I felt it wasn't a positive message to release and I wasn't sure I wanted to be this transparent.  I thought I had deleted it but now coming back to it, I've decided to share it.  Sometimes what we think won't help is just what's needed for someone else to get a grip with reality. 

Sometimes it takes a tragic situation to bring us to a place of total dependency on God.  I realised that I was trying to handle some impossible situations on my own or rather with my own understanding.  I was reminded to not lean on my own understanding but to trust God to work things out.  There are so many things that I have to do and some I've promised to do and haven't got round to doing yet, others I've done but not yet despatched.  It took my brother-in-law to be hospitalised to remind me that I am only human and there are some things that can surely wait.  It reminded me to prioritise and take care of the more important issues.  Seeing my brother in bed unable to do things for himself was a wake up call.  So if I had a word of encouragement for you today it would be: TRUST GOD!   Proverbs 3:5 &6 reminds us to: "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." He promised never to leave you nor forsake you.  He loves us so much that He sent His only Son to die on the cross and save us from our sins.  There is no greater love.  God is Love.  Put Him first and you'll be surprised how everything just falls into place.  I am more focused today being reminded of Matthew 6:33:

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. (NLT)

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.  (KJV)

I am happier today because I am more focused and have a better direction.  I started organising areas of my life that I usually leave to chance.  It has released some of the anxieties and I'm looking forward to a more organised life. We often need a reminder to Trust in God, whatever our circumstance because when we do that He takes care of all our needs.  He did it for me and I know that if you trust Him He will do the same for you.  

God bless you!
Janice