Today I’m celebrating because I have learned to put my trust in God—totally submitting my all to Him and allowing Him to take full control of my life.  I have overcome many obstacles because He leads the way and so I know that all the struggles I now face and will face in my life, I have already overcome.  I pray that you will find encouragement for your journey through the pieces I’ll share with you tonight.  My prayer is that these poems will minister to those who are hurting, in various ways, to recognise the need to get to the core of what causes their pain.  Once the root of the problem is recognised, embrace James 5:16 and know that God is faithful and just to forgive not just the victim but also the perpetrator.  Allow for the purification to take place so that you can love again from a true and pure heart, the place from where God accepts your offering of praise.

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Anger is a terrible thing! And that’s where my testimony stems from tonight.  I found myself struggling with resentment, from parental neglect.  Becoming aware of Ephesians 5:27, 31 & 32, I had to find a way to channel my anger.

Adultery is what started this chain of anger in my ancestral timeline and I have watched many relatives live less than fulfilled life, failing to let go of the hurt and being forgiving.  Having recognised this I was able to see that parental neglect was just a by-product of this whole mess and not the main issue.  It was a symptom but strong enough to cause me to sin.  I craved the love of my mum and dad, and so I lived all my life with that void, stuck in a rut.  I was suffering because of my parents wrong-doing and I couldn’t see pass the hurt from losing my childhood.  Soon, anger turns to resentment and I was sinking deeper into sin.

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Over the past two years, I have listened to sermons, exhortations, and testimonies which started to work on that area of my life.  I wanted to live and so I took note of the words of encouragements, scriptures and testimonies.  I was convicted by the following scriptures:

James 5:16       “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed.  The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.”

1^st John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

I started to share during the testimony sessions.  I took notes of personal advice given during my time of sharing with the congregation.  I read books, articles, listened to music and watched programs that helped me through the grieving process.  It was a painful journey arriving to the place of acceptance.  But when I got there I was able to embrace Psalm 27:10: “When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up.”

I was also able to recognise that God had His hand on me all through my struggle. 

The Quotes and bible references below have helped to open my eyes to the truth.  I pray that as you journey through, you’ll find comfort in these scriptures and embrace the life of fullness that God has in store for you.

A stumbling block in my life it became,

Crippled by thoughts of yesterday’s mistakes.”

Writing the above made me realise that I hadn’t accepted the gift of life that Christ had given to me.  I wept knowing I had broken my vow to follow Christ and that repentance was the only way forward. 

One morning in November 2008, a voice said to me: “Pain will reach every one of us.” This statement has helped me to accept the position in my natural family, as a neglected child, since Romans 6:5 confirms this: “For every man shall bear his own burden.” I figured if it wasn’t parental neglect it would be something else, so the sooner I accept this the quicker I can move forward.  I started focusing on the positive things in my life and was able to look back and see how God had strategically placed me in positions where I always had parental guidance.  I repented and determined in my heart to go through the process of grieving and healing so I could be delivered.  

It’s been a painful journey but I have overcome.  Break-through has taken place as I see my misfortunes evolve into stepping stones; being able to use my experience to help others.  I now accept the new earthly family God has blessed me with and on my heart is written the words of Psalm 27:10.


It’s the tests that I’ve gone through that opened my eyes to discover who I am in Christ.  I am now learning to recognise the potential I have in Christ.

I thank God for using this fellowship to help me overcome in this area of my life.  He has spoken to me through sermons, exhortations, friendship, prophesies.  He also used individuals to help me by being a listening ear, giving a compassionate hug, handshake or just a friendly smile.

Thank you for your continued prayers, for all the words of encouragement and your kindness.  Thank you for taking me under your wings and for teaching me.  I love you & I pray that God will continue to guide you.

God bless you!

Your sister in Christ

Sister Janice Ramkissoon

(C.O.G.I.C Community House)
[shared with my fellowship on the 5th of August 2009]